I feel dirty. Like if I keep this up. . . if I enjoy it, I'll become a monster. Worse than the proxies. He who fights, heh? Keith's clean. He hasn't even seen those things. He's been doing the clean things. I cant let him do the things I do I cant let him become a monster Hes my responsibility.
To quote the movie, you either die a hero or live long enough to see yourself become the villain.
ReplyDelete"He who fights monsters should see to it that he himself does not become a monster. And if you gaze for long into an abyss, the abyss gazes also into you."
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I uh.. . I questioned the proxies we found. Got their background. I'll compile later. Right now? Right now I've sorta been torturing them for information. I caught myself laughing yesterday. I stopped. Literally slapped myself. The proxy stopped screaming, laughed at me. Told me that I was even worse than he had been. That I would become worse than he is. I ran out, puked into some bushes near the warehouse. Keith spent today calming me down after he got back. He found a small settlement with two proxies living in it. Didn't touch it. good guy, that one. Has more common sense than I do, anyways. I'm uhh, gonna call it an early night.I'll ask Keith to post what he finds in the settlement tomorrow.
Oh. And I armed Keith, just in case someone decides he'll make a nice target.
DeleteBe careful, is all I can say. Be detached.
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